Friday, August 29, 2014

Getting pregnant and being plus size...

         My husband and I have been ttc, and its been since 6 months and no luck so far. Sometimes I question is because I am big? I understand being bigger I face more health risks if I were to conceive. But does that mean I don't deserve to have children even? I once had a person tell me, the reason I can't get pregnant is because I'm so fat. Well.. reality check I may be fat. but I am making a healthy change, my BP good, Blood Glucose is in the normal. Unfortunately I was diagnosed the other day with PCOS (Polycystic ovary syndrome) by my Gynecologist, which in turn a lot of overweight women have. Its a little bit of a downer, but I am down 1 pound since I've last blogged and it may be 1 but I am even more motivated now. I was prescribed Metformin to help regulate everything and help us conceive (I still need to read up on the drug a little more). I picture nothing more being able to run with my children, and doing so much with them.
        I was slacking a little in the diet area this week.. Have had no pop (woohoo!) but haven't been watching my carbs.

Monday, August 25, 2014

Lets get started!

I decided to start this blog for everyone to follow my journey while a attempt to lose weight. 

          Let me start off by rewinding a little bit.... I've been overweight my entire life basically. I was in baton twirling when I was younger which kept me in decent shape but I always noticed I was much more different than the other girls. When I got into high school it wasn't too bad. I didn't get teased as much as I thought I would. In HS I was all the way up too 220lbs, size 20 pants. By the time I was a senior I weighed 275lbs, size 24 pants. I kept telling myself  "I wont get any bigger" "I wont get any bigger". 
          Then College approached, I went through a period of starving myself and using laxatives.. Which dropped me down to 200. Which I realized wasn't healthy for me.. and also the stress of changing majors and not knowing where my path is in life, I got very depressed, and gained it all back and slowly worked my way up too 300lbs, yes 300, I know. 
         That number scares me to no end. I since then dropped out of college all in all which made me very depressed. I went through a period where I didn't know what to do, and went to a very low point in my life. Luckily I was blessed with a very loving fiance' (now husband) and my parents being very supportive, I became a bit more positive, got a job, got married, living on my own. 
           I work at a local factory, and they hold a wellness exam you have to get every year. Which I didn't think much of it, but I got my results back and saw that I was up to 322lbs. I was speechless. How did I let myself get this far? 
Well I decided when I got that paper in the mail, it was a serious wake up call for me. 
Its time for change (dont mind my incredibly handsome husband ;))
Not only is this for myself, but its for my future children, my husband, those stairs I can't climb, the roller coasters I can't ride, the trails I can't hike, the giggles when I walk into american eagle, the stares at a restaurant. I'm done with it!!

It has been one month now since I have started my diet. I am also taking supplements from GNC: WOMENS ULTRA MEGA Energy and Metabolism, Vitapak Program

http://www.gnc.com/GNC-Womens-Ultra-Mega-Energy-and-Metabolism/product.jsp?productId=13315607

From one month ago I went from 322lbs to 310lbs. And this is without exercising.. Which is my next challenge... Since I work in a factory, I stand all day. I was diagnosed with Plantar Fasciitis in both feet, which has held me back from exercising. When I get home from work I can barely stand to do things like dishes, even take a shower, walk out to the chicken coop, take the dogs out etc. 
I am meeting with a few health professionals within the next few weeks to figure out what I can do for exercises for people who have this pain. My husband and I are also planning on joining a gym within the next week. 
We have been making our own protein replacement shakes and drinking them once a day (will post recipes as I post.) and then eating two small meals. I think I am on the right track...Although have had a few cheat days which I hope when I step on the scale today, some pounds didn't inch up on me. 

I am hoping if you come across this blog, I gladly accept advice others are willing to give. I also hope to inspire others to get on the right track, because there is more to life than food. 


CURRENT WEIGHT: 310LBS
GOAL WEIGHT: 150LBS

~skinnyemmie~